I want Peace

I never craved peace as I do now. I don’t want to wake up bothered, angry, bitter, with no negative energy or thoughts; I just want to be happy and at peace with everything.

The worst thing that could ever happen to someone is giving people access to your energy. I was once blindly in love and I never felt so much happiness in my life.

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The relationship was perfect; it was described as a match made in heaven. Two years into our relationship and we were doing just fine and I couldn’t wait for us to spend the rest of our life together.

We had names for the three kids we wanted to have and already discussed family planning; I never saw us not happening. Everything was just perfect until my closest friend got into the picture.

They both deceived me; they played on my innocence and likeness for them. How something went on for years and I never doubted their loyalty, and they were always together with me.

They always told me they loved me and behind my back, they were having an affair. When I saw both of them together in my room, my eyes which always dazzled in darkness turned to darkness.

I knew my life will never be the same; how could people I trusted with my life stab me where it hurts the most and were never remorseful for their sins until I found out.

I hated men and stopped keeping friends; peace left me, my life went from joy to trauma.

I am tired of the nights I wake up with tears in my eyes, I am tired of my heart aching all day long, I am tired of the sad days, I just want to be happy.