No one has the right to tell you what to do

No person has the right to condemn you on how you repair your heart because no one knows how much you are hurting.

One thing with pain is that you can’t determine how it hits you or how you deal with it; it suddenly comes like a wave of emotions that you can’t handle and you are just as good as clueless. 

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The wedding I spent months planning shattered before my eyes in just a space of two days.

How could I have ever have known that the guy I wanted to spend the rest of my life with was nothing too close to a human?

 I saw the red signs‚ but I never for once thought it was a good reason to call off our five years of relationship.

Few days to‚ our wedding‚ a pregnant woman showed up in front of my door begging me to leave her fiancé for her that he has stopped taking care of their kids because of me and if I should better call off the wedding or else she’s going to storm the church with her kids.

I didn’t know what to say‚ I was tongue-tied and I knew that it was the end of all the dreams I had.

I had to trace the woman the next day and I found out she was living in the house I acquired together with my soon-to-be husband; I now remembered the reason he never wanted me to visit here.

He made m entrust him with all my wealth; we had a joint account and my houses were under our name. 

I made calls to my lawyer immediately and he didn’t hesitate to lock the documents away from him as he told me he was in his office to get them.

I was on my way home when our joint account was cleared by him; he left me with no dime and that was the last day I ever heard from him. 

No one understands how I feel‚ they are all telling me to move on that it has been years.

I know how it feels like exactly‚ to be fooled for years‚ played with; no one has the right to tell me how to deal with my pain.